I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY!!!!! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME!!!! WHY DIDN'T I CHECK MY MAIL BEFORE COMING OUT TODAY!!!!!!!! I HAVE WANTED THIS ALL ALONG!!!!!!!!!! BUT IT SLIPPED THROUGH MY FINGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO VENT THIS OUT OTHER THAN WRITING ALL THIS IN CAPS!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!! WHY AM I SO SUAY!!!!!!!

I STILL FIND IT HARD TO ACCEPT THISSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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